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Is this paper worth my words Your words always hurt If I Closed my eyes would that fill the silence You say you love me But what is love I feel lost Is the definition of love A resolution But can it become enough Can someone like me be really healed Of my illness So why can't you just show me your emotions I'm dying each day When you don't reveal your heart to me When you unleash your anger onto me I want you to say sorry But if you don't feel it then I can't put it there Don't you love me anymore I would carry on loving your until my core had fallen out onto the floor Until the last bell rang out To give you a sign where I am going to kill

I've lost interest in what makes me happy I'm so tired and life has trapped me within this cage of expectation but where shall I go from here. Do I try to escape to nothingness or do I try to walk through the bricks and thorns that will cut through me with every step I take. This is my story I cook and leave pots and pans to go mouldy like my depression. I feel like the light within me has gone out. If I died tomorrow do you think that anyone would know? Would anyone give a shit? I live in a box that is draining my money away. I can't tidy up I've tried and I just mess it up again. I can't even relax when I do I drift off to the world of drea

I give up on everything I care to much I love to much I feel too much But nothing is never enough I want to die I want to scratch my face off Did everyone get what they want? There is no anger but silence How can there be anger when there is no motivation I want to stop Please make this stop With each movement my limbs are bleeding This depression has taken over my life I live in hell what am I too do should I walk up to a doctor and say Im mad throw me away im a nut job I can't open up to people Everyone already is judging me People don't want a depressed boring person They want to be entertained To have something to gain kill me kill me

What is love? Is love something you share Is it something you feel Does it heal The pain inside of you I loved you the moment I met you You sheltered me from the cold You fought my battles and stayed outside in the dark You protected me but now I don't need protecting So what is love? This is not a poem This is not words I've stolen your heart But was it really mine to begin with I dreamed that you'd be the one I live with I want you to push me when I'm down And make me stop staying in this hole I want to be loved by you always What is love? Is love when too people look across a crowed place and see the person they are going to spend the res

I miss you so much Love is tough When your apart from me I shed tears into the sea My tears run like rain I am going insane I wish we could just skip again I will wait forever in hoping you come back into my arms I miss all your charms You and me are meant to be Holding hands for eternity Why am I finding missing you so hard My tears are as thick as lard I wish I could just hug you I need to talk to you I need to feel and see you I need to love you everyday in every single way What more can I say But loving you is worth this painful wait I wish my spontaneous heart could just close my eyes to open them to seeing you right in front of me I k

My heart is breaking My anger is shaking My heart is embedding itself with its remains My essence is running down lanes You tore out my happiness I am still in this sadness I am made out of depression This is my lesson To never let anyone in again Why put myself through this pain I've lived in pain My spirit climbed up and over the pit My sorrow is pulling me under My anger is striking my body like thunder I wish I could just go under My eyes are sore to the core My spirit is on the floor I wish I could close my eyes To drift away into unconsciousness This pain won't ever dry up the lies I won't give you my forgiveness I

You are my core The light within my soul Our love has no flaw Your absence leaves a gaping hole Where I crawl into it And remember the candle which is forever lit When you appear This sorrow that has clung to me starts to disappear I am a vulnerable soul that cries out emotions My love overwhelms me So I can see what is infront of me But on the surface I am a blank canvas That hides away to enjoy the beauty of life My solace is my company when your not here with me